"Excuse me? Wait, What?"
"You heard me," said with a chuckle.
Why wouldn't the Artist of my soul speak to me this way? He is using my language. He got my attention.
In these past few weeks, I faced some mental, spiritual, and physical challenges. It's ironic that when I feel like I have it all together, just around the corner, lies my next challenge. Yet again, something new to take a bite into, and slowly digest. A few weeks ago, I was forced into stillness. Literally, ALL activity in my life had to come to an abrupt halt leaving me to mull in the silence of just BE-ing. I had no choice but to do some spiritual heart surgery.
In the stillness, I was able to see that I had gotten caught up once AGAIN in a tornadic cycle of striving. Let's be honest. We all get swept up in this cycle. Fortunately I am not as stubborn and stiff-necked as I used to be. Notice I said "not as."
We all have our "striving cycles." Mine may be different than yours. One of my most recent striving platforms that I've been out to prove is my "bad-assery." My mighty princess warrior had been on a rampage for everyone to see, my pendulum way out of balance of living in my authenticity.
"How about you lay down that mighty princess warrior sword awhile?"
"Uhhhh, ok?"
Direct, Clear, and to the point.
I began to think about how I have been proudly waving that sword. Directing it to slice through every challenge, and every person I perceived to challenge my strength as a woman.
(pride comes before a fall)
In my forced stillness, I realized that I had forgotten to BE. I love to BE. BE-ing is the BEST!!!!! I know the value of being still, I teach the value of being still, and I (ahem) mostly live in being still. I realized, there is more to settle in my soul.
The prideful warrior inside wanted to prove to everyone she could fight, and she was a strong bad-ass. MPW drove herself full force into situations that potentially could have caused her emotional and physical harm. Fun, yes… Adventurous….yes. Sometimes stupid…yes. Prideful….you betcha!
(I will fight for you, you only need to be still)
Surely I can't be the only person who struggles with this balance.
I wonder………
What is it that you are striving to prove? Haven't you proven enough? What do you need the world to see? Are those reasons serving you? When will it end? Will there ever be NOTHING left to prove?
For me, (literally and metaphorically) my warrior authentically will always be drawn to tough mudders, steep rock climbs, cliffs to jump off of, daring water adventures, and certifications.
The big question I pose to myself, and to you is WHY? Are we drawn to the striving to prove our worth? Are we drawn to strive out of duty?
OR….do we live in zeal from the authenticity of how our soul was designed to live and love?
What would it look like to simply BE?
To live in this moment not to PROVE a single thing.
What would it be like for us all to truly BE comfortable in within our skin and LOVE.
What revolution would start in our community if we stopped trying to prove "that thing"
Think about it.
I challenge you as I challenge myself, to enjoy living in the present moment of BE-ing.
XOXO
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